Jesus will save you EVERYTIME

The other night we had Bible Study at our house; for those who don't know The College & Young Professionals group at our church, Oak Park Christian Church, has a study each week that meets at our house, and half of that age group are already married, so some of them end up going to Heather and Aaron's Young Couple and Newlywed's Study.... anyway....

So, we function in having one person read over the passage the week before and really study it, and then they tell it back to us the next week after having spent the past 6 days going over it. And then the facilitator chosen picks themes and morals to have a discussion as a group, and then there is another person who tells the story back, as like a recap of what was said in the beginning. So this week we studied the Ministry of Elijah from 1 Kings 17-19 (awesome stuff-- check it out), and then we talked about our goals... in a way to relate them to the story-- our goals for this next week. It was easy for me.... TRUST GOD. It is hard for me, because I want to trust Him with everything I have and not worry about it and not give it another thought-- but I still do. So.... earlier that evening had not started well with an argument with a friend, that I had to walk away from, and so here I am angry, and I have so much on my plate and also having to continue to work through what seems a personal inner-battle, and that is the upgrade to where I formally was. So, I am overwhelmed. I want God to just deal with it, because apparently I can't.

So that night, I have a dream... two people who have had a huge impact in my life from the past 7 years are in this dream, just there.... nothing good or bad-- it is like they make a silent appearance. So, then it changes..... it changes to me standing on what seems to be a platform, and I am looking out ahead (and kinda downwards) and I see this shadow... and I am like... what the crap is that? (I think it was a thought, don't remember if I had said it out loud in the dream or not), anyway, I see the shadow getting bigger and moving but kinda away from me, even though the shadow is getting bigger, all of a sudden the shadow turns around and it is a ginormous bear. I see it and get belly flat on the ground, and all of a sudden this bear comes at me... lunges, and ends up on top of me (yes all this in a dream), and I am panicking in this dream, and it is on top of me about to maul me and I scream (Yes, scream) "JESUS SAVE ME", and I woke up instantly. I was breathing heavy, and my heart was beating fast. Amanda was still in bed next to me, but I could hear Kristi awake in the kitchen... and I am like "OH MY GOSH" and then wondered "Did I scream outloud?"

But, looking at it.... how symbolic. Kristi even said "It shows God will save you from the unbearable" Gotta love the analogy. But I thought it was crazy that in a dream, that was my true response. That is where I want my heart all the time, and my mind for Jesus to save me. Save me from myself, from my sin... and He has... He went to the cross. And He will save me everytime. I call out to Him and He will be there, I just need to increase in faith and trust, and it will always get easier. I know God will never give me anything I can't handle, and I have made it this far... and I have made it through some very trying things. And He knows I can handle it.

I have made it through relationships, bad physical stuff, emotional breakdowns, heart break, financial crisis', job woes, housing issues.... and He never fails. He overcomes it all, and He is overcoming depression and anxiety. I may not be able to trust many people in the world based on their actions and words in life, but GOD NEVER FAILS!!! He has brought people in my life like Amanda, Kristi, Kim, Maddie, Genessa, Bekah, Kevin, Brian (The Joster), Will, Susee, and my church family at Oak Park to be of comfort. Being people who love me when I am completely a mess, who also put me in my place. People who are honest with me, people who point me to Jesus by their words and actions. I don't feel judged by them. God took me to San Diego, and I hated every moment of it, and I was obedient regardless, because I had nothing to lose, and He brought me back. He knew my hearts desire. I have people who are like honorary parents to me (yes, I have real parents who are awesome too), but these are people who also have really taken care of me and I am so blessed by them. I have never been interested in shallow relationships, and the ones I have I cherish. I am changing still as a person, and who I am close to is changing as well. I used to have someone I considered like an older sister to me, and over the past year and a half the relationship stopped. I would call and they would never recipricate, I saw them in a store and waved and they acted like they didn't see me. It was hurtful. But made me realize, I don't need to put energy into that. God has blessed me with others. I have those who do question things in my life... and God is like "Who cares? Can't win them all?" But I am here. I was here yesterday, I am here now, and I will be here tomorrow too :)

So Jesus will save You everytime. You have nothing to lose, but so much to gain. Let Him save you!! God will never mess with the gift He has given us-- Free Will. So what will you do with it?