Does God Really Care Where We Work or Live?

As my stress level seems to be at an all time high.... here I am trying to be calm, not trying to worry about the details.... and letting God provide one step at a time.

Let me back up since my last post. My last post I was so scared about God giving me exactly what I was praying for. A job.... and that job being in New York City. I thought I had completely bombed a couple interviews (as I feel a little rusty in the interview department), and yet was continuing to progress in the cycle. This week the progress continued with a Mock Sales Call, and I thought I did awful. I mean I was nervous, felt too rehearsed, and wish I had more time to research the material I was presenting. So, I follow up with emails, as I do with any interview situation... and she responds and ends the email with "We will be in touch!". Now that phrase, is like a "Don't call us, we'll call you". And then you proceed to look for another job.

This morning I was given confirmation we are indeed moving forward in the process-- and I will now be buying plane tickets to fly out in a couple weeks to meet them in person. And the nervous are in high gear.... just like my  stress level. I look back on my last experience with interviewing for AMA when I went out in January, and I see how they should have had me go through a phone interview first before having me fly out there. I mean that is a lot of money to invest for something that is 0% when I walked on the plane. It was a great weekend with family, but the rest was a gamble.

Now I look back on my career journey. When I began my college career at 17 years old sitting in my first class at Cuesta. I was so stoked to be in the city that will forever be what I know as "home". I was dating someone at the time whom at that time I thought was a great guy, and I was on my own. I mean I had beat the odds and proved so many people wrong I could do it. I sat in a 7:30 am English class.... and reality set in that High School did not prepare me for what was to come. And I think that was the lesson. I was not prepared to be a real college student, and that first year of college was full of alot of uncertainty. I mean I was an English major, preparing my career to teach High Schoolers. And after a year and a half of going through British Literature, European Literature, and alike courses... I realized I would be grading papers the rest of my life-- and I mean I had learned that life is tough, and that guys were pretty much stupid.  I look back at all the jobs I have had from working at Flying J to save money to move to the Central Coast, to my first job here working at Fresh Choice to GAP to Starbucks to Coffee Bean-- and here I am now, almost a year in at Cole. And it has been a decent job. Building my skill set, not in retail, and have pretty cool bosses. I can't complain. It pays the bills- yet doesn't completely help me get out of debt.

Now-- a graduated Recreation, Parks, and Tourism Administration major with a B.S. is ready for something new, ready to use it. And unsure of what I don't know. Having faith in the details.

Now look at your life-- are you where you thought you would be in this time in your life? If God is in control-- are you where you are supposed to be on HIS will plan, and not your own? Are you letting him guide your path and make your circumstances? I think I wonder God's plan alot and if I am where I am because He wants me there or because of my free will I am where I am, and what God thinks about that.

I have really always wondered what really matters to God in the aspect of our lives. Does he care where we live? We can serve Him anywhere if willing. Does he care where we work? As long as we glorify him and are an example in the workplace?

So right now I know I owe those who don't usually follow my blog or have Facebook a legitimate update-- and it is coming.... I promise. Perhaps this weekend if I get the time outside of working, helping a friend, possibly cleaning my room. Things of the like. Life is busy I am finding, and my energy level is depleted.

God has taken me on quite the path, and I have found myself asking "why?" alot!