Sprung into Summer

I have come to realize that I don't like to be busy... well okay... over the top insane busy. I think it gets in the way of peace, time to myself, and my overall sanity.

Since April life has been a whirl wind.... bridal showers, Easter, Bachelorette parties, Mexico Team Coordinating, now packing and moving. And yes, I take all this on because at some point along the way (once again) I have lacked the ability to say "no", and focus on wanting to please people. I know that the motivation is good... I want to help people, see them happy, and want their best. I know, I am crazy!

In that.... I have now seen my best friend, Amanda, get married to a great guy a couple weekends ago and about to go through it one more time as my other best friend, Ali, marries someone pretty awesome this coming weekend.

I have not had a moment to stop and be by myself, which I have needed for quite some time. I was telling a friend this morning through texting that I considered myself lucky to get alone time this morning to go to the Cardiologist and to the Dentist to get my teeth cleaned (yes, I still LOVE getting my teeth cleaned). I hate how time flies but I am really excited for June to end and my life to kinda settle down. However, writing has always helped. Blogging is good for that sort of thing.

In that.... I made the "official" announcement on Facebook about my departure from my current job with Samsung and that I would be moving (again) down to So. Cal. Ever since I came back from New York... I haven't quite felt like I "came back". I have been missing NYC terribly, and I know it is just not in the cards to be there and I get that. I know I have responsibilities to finish school and that is something very important to me. The past few months everytime I was down in LA, I longed for it more. I tried earlier to transfer within Samsung when a spot opened up closer to down there, and it didn't work out. I was frustrated, but I also know I don't want to do wireless forever. I want something more. God has definitely been working in His provision. The week of Amanda's wedding my housing seemed to be all set, and I was so relieved to not have to worry about it and I could fully focus on Amanda for the week. Well in the middle of the week it all fell through. I went into instant panic and in the midst of Amanda stressing out about her wedding I was having a mini-break down of anxiety on what I was going to do because I never wanted to focus on it the week of her wedding. So, that weekend I committed to not worrying about it because there was nothing I could do until the wedding was over. I forgot about the posting I had put for the church I am going to down there for their classifieds and got a call about a place in the area I ideally wanted to live in and the cost was lower than I budgeted.. and the best part... amazing Christian girls who love the Lord and meeting them the next day.... I was at such peace. God provided without me looking for them. At that moment much of my worry about moving and doubts subsided because I was reminded that "God had it under control".

I start work July 1 with training and will be moved into my new place and all events and commitments will have come to a close. No regrets or complaints as I am honored that both Amanda and Ali asked me to be part of their respective special days. I was so heartbroken to not be able to join the Mexico team this year due to conflict with Ali's wedding, I am still so glad I am able to contribute with coordinating (putting that degree I do have to work). It has been a blessing watching this team prepare to serve families and the communities in Tijuana, and that is my biggest prayer request is for God to bring them protection and strength and for the families to be open to what God wants to do and the love He has to give through these people. Over 13 churches go here on the Pacific Northwest and that's about 250 people building homes, putting on Vacation Bible School, and Vision Clinics for the people in Tijuana. I have next year and I can't wait.

So that's my life in a nutshell... crazy. Moving down to LA at the end of the month (Sherman Oaks to be exact) and working nearby in San Fernando Valley. Excited to finish school, network for the jobs I do want long term, and who knows what else God will do or what He will bring.

I am so thankful for people like Heather Jones in my life and the encouragement she has always been. She is my biggest cheerleader, and even though she is 1,200 miles away now in Washington :( It has definitely kept me going in the moments of stress and doubt (this is my shoutout to her). God has amazed me the people He has preented to be that when I needed and I give Heather props because she is the one I would vent to when life has been overwhelming, or when "drama" happens... she definitely gives the best perspective. And even in Ali's wedding planning the first thing she asks me is "how I am doing?". It has been a blessing for sure... 6 years of friendship and going strong.... sometimes I feel as though I don't deserve it.

My VZW family.... if it was not for those happy hours and hilarious group texts I would not make it through.

So that's been life since April.... and life is just whizzing by. All I want it a weekend nap and time to myself.... maybe it will come before the summer is over :)

(I will post pics of Spring highlights of weddings, events, and life soon).