I look back at the past six years and wonder where they went. Six years ago I made the final decision that I was going to move to San Luis Obispo immediately after high school. High school was hell on earth for me. I mean I know there are people who have had worse, but overall... not the best memory making experience. Not only was I immature and a brat, I was not into all the crap alot of people were into. Dating.... not something I cared about with the limited selection of a class size of 65. By the time I hit my senior year, alot had changed for me. I grew up... because I was going to be on my own in less than a year than the first day I started my senior year. No one took me seriously that I was going to leave, and everytime I had visited after moving everyone assumed I was coming back. I made my decision to move to SLO, and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I got a job working full time while I was doing school, and worked on who I was going to live with and where. I didn’t know much, but I wanted to look on my own. Well through the searching, saving money, and saying not at all a tearful goodbye I was out of Frazier Park. I don’t miss it. I miss my family, but I don’t miss the crap "friends" put me through. I thought it used to matter to be super popular, super smart, have all the perfect clothes, and be pretty. I thought cliques were something I would always deal with, and I needed to start over and have roots somewhere else.
I learned alot my first year, about myself and the people I wanted to surround myself with. I learned in not the best way, but learned nonetheless. When I moved to SLO I was very fortunate to know many people so I was not so lonely... I had John, Jeremiah, Mike, Jonathan... yeah all the guys ;) Girls annoyed me because I thought they were all backstabbers. I felt like all the girls who were my "friend" were fake, and I think I knew they were. But these guys were awesome. Yeah Jeremiah and I had our drama.... oh my gosh... how many rounds... 3 before I learned he was not boyfriend material, or someone I could see a future with. It was an emotional hell of a relationship, and that relationship changed me. All in my first year of college. I lost a roommate, and then got a new one then another.... and then it took 3 years to get the best situation and the stress to be lifted. The Wesley House. I met my best friend through Campus Crusade who ended up living in the house the next year.... before being best friends. Then at the end of Karelisa moving out (and she is still my roommate of love), my relationship with Mike unexpectantly changed. We began dating and then through him I gained so many awesome friends adding to all the other blessings of people God brought into my life through classes and Campus Crusade and the Wesley House. I met Amanda and that has been rad ever since. So I have three amazing best friends (and I am dating one of them), and I am so blessed. I can be hard to deal with at times, but you know some reason.... they stick around. I have come a long way. I have Amanda knocking me upside the head when I am being a jerk (to put it nicely), but it is in love. I have Special K who I could never lie to (not that I would lie to anyone), and Mike... he puts up with my crap more than anyone, and yet here he is... 9 years of friendship, and 1 1/2 years of that dating. As I take my last final tomorrow and wonder where do I go..... I know it is not on the other side of the 46 or the 166.... I know my heart is in SLO with my best friends and my life is here. I will take a lower paying job to be here and to be happy and to jump in my car drive 10 minutes and be in Pismo or Morro Bay. My parents are a little over 2 hours away, not too shabby.
I have been able to do some California travel in my time here... learn about the town "Alamo" which you shouldn’t call Danville... ahem... Katrina ;) I have learned about a town called El Centro (thanks to Special K). Been to NY, Israel, San Diego, Mexico, Canada (in a layover... I am letting it count). I regret not studying abroad, but my loans don’t ;) Half of my college career was in braces... they come off Tuesday! I have seen some of the greatest couples I know marry like Scott & Laura, Joe & Suzanne, David & Jen, Chip & Laura, Alison & Alan... and more to come with Carlene & Drew and Joel & Carissa. I have cried over breaking computers, overdrawn accounts, being jobless, roommateless, broken down car, hitting semi-trucks, bicyclists, and failing midterms. I have had my joys in getting accepted into Poly, dating Mike, conversations with Amanda, making donuts with Brian and Karelisa, Scott pranking Dominos pizza..... and my youth kids.... those are joys my heart can not contain. It has been an amazing 6 years, and I didn’t know what the beginning of them would look like, and I didn’t even imagine what the end of the road was going to feel like, but I did it. I worked hard, student loans, and never had to eat top ramen. WOOO!!!!!!
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