We all need cheerleaders in our lives

I was reminded tonight about the blessings I have in my life-- even in the midst of feeling crazy stress and being overloaded. Not that Facebook by any means is what I should measure my blessings by, but 21 people liking my status about the progression of transferring to New York-- by applying again to the new spots that have opened, and the words of encouragement and prayers mean more to me than I think they know.  I am so blessed that the moment something happens in my goal towards NY, Heather is the first to text me about it or message me in someway to encourage! It really blesses me. It blesses me when my Aunts encourage me to people preparing me that they will be sleeping on my couch when I move. It blesses me when Kim will watch The Avengers with me and tell me she doesn't want me to move to NY because of all the attacks that could happen.... ;o)

I feel as though over the past 10 years when I moved to SLO from little 'ole Frazier Park I had a lot of people waiting for me to fail. Many people said I was not going to make it and that I would be coming back with in a year. Maybe that was a big motivator for me to prove them wrong... because I am one of the most stubborn people (it is not my best quality), and I hate to let people see those things in me. I struggled and struggled and on my own after 6 years of hitting bumps in the road graduated from the only school I was going to go to-- Cal Poly. I feel I have overcome all those things and 10 years later and many trials I am stronger (because of Jesus) and I am ready for the next chapter ahead.

Since before I got into Cal Poly my dream and goal has always been to live in NYC and work in the city. And I have been pursuing it with applying for jobs, and networking. I now work for a company that can potentially let me do this and am in a new round of applying for not 1 but 4 spots in the city. Like the first time around... I have people who have surprised me in their support. I also have been surprised by those who have not expressed it. I know it may sound vain-- but I am gonna say it anyway because I can-- but it is also disconcerting to find those who don't believe in me still or don't take me seriously in the things I want to do in my life. I still have the dreams of "getting married and having a family", but as I itch closer to 30, that seems harder to accomplish. I don't want to see it as a "goal" because it is not a game, nor is making a big move 2,800 miles away.


I realize too I need to be thankful for the moments I have right now and in what I have because they are all things that are way more than what I deserve. I have amazing friends and family, a great church... all amazing support systems from New York to South Carolina... all the way to California to Oregon to Wisconsin. God is good in how he puts people here, there, and everywhere. We all need someone or people in our lives to encourage us, cheer us on, and let us know we are gonna make it. People who will help us get to where we need and want to go. I think we all have those people in our lives, but we get so tied up in what we don't think is going right-- we miss out on what is right in front of us. We all need cheerleaders in our lives, and we need to always remember that I number 1 fan is Jesus!

Some prayers: Prayers for my mom as she feels discouraged with life throwing some trials her way or continuing to throw trials her way. For God to provide and bring peace from finding a job to having her car work correctly and that she would quickly get on her feet.