Curveball

Life is full of many uncertainties and yet also filled with so many possibilities. I was thinking about a lot of things over the past couple weeks about my real goals and aspirations. My whole life it has been my goal to have a better life than how I grew up both financially and stability wise. Something my mom taught me and showed me the importance of. Growing up I always wanted to work in the entertainment industry in some capacity (well the respectable kind). For a long time, I wanted to go into acting and spent time in both Jr. High and High School in plays (kinda died down in High School because well... I went to not a great high school with a horrible drama program). At the latter end of high school was told I needed to have a fall back plan in case what I wanted to do didn't work out. I was told this by my mom and friends and so I did just that--- went and got my degree from Cal Poly. Even through it I have always had this interest in the industry but after going to a lot of TV tapings growing up and also having even seen movies filmed (my midnight adventure with Matty Barclay watching Jeepers Creepers filmed at Tejon Ranch), I loved that side just as much... the production side.

Fast forward to now.... working at Verizon and making really decent money and still wanting more. I am in Grad School and will finish sometime next year. And my options are two things-- move to LA or move to NY. Both those areas provide the ultimate goal (and will keep me busy trying to get a position that will get me to what I am passionate about). Interning on my days off or working for scraps so I can get the "in". The past few months I have interviewed for positions with Verizon in NY (and didn't get the position), and continued applying for positions with Verizon in Southern California as well as I became torn of being closer to my mom and sister (and even brother sometimes) during what has been big change in my family the past few months. I applied for a position in Northridge with Verizon a couple weeks back and it ended up being filled by someone else in the district. But, last week the recruiter for the district set up an interview for Valencia and their open position. This is not what I was expecting and my excitement level was not totally there. But I realized... I don't have to live in Valencia..

And for those who don't understand my excitement about Valencia (or lack thereof excitement)... I lived in Frazier Park (and hated it) during high school and Valencia feels like some extension of that. But then again... I don't have to live in Valencia either. So, I interviewed and I felt it went well... so not sure what the future holds with that. I know I must do the responsible thing and let the job take me somewhere and not go anywhere without a job in stone and a dependable paycheck. And it puts me in LA, and closer to opportunities to get me to NY or in the industry I want. I have lived on the Central Coast for 10 years almost (in July) and have loved every second of it. I am very blessed... but I also know my opportunities for many things I want in life are limited. I can't do studio work here and the "dating pool" is limited and 30 ain't coming any slower....

So prayers for the outcome are always appreciated.