Losing Some Momentum

Do you ever have those moments where you feel you have lost the momentum? It is not like you don't still have the same desires, but there is something in you that is exhausted, or life interferes as it always does distracting you from the prize and goal that you are gonna have to work hard and sometimes long for.

Here I am in the middle of what seems to be a "Quarter-Life Crisis" (famous words from my dear friend Ashley).  I am not where I thought I would be at this point in my life and given the goals I have had in my life.... have I even gotten a dent in achieving them? My goal was to go to Cal Poly and graduate and I have done that. It has been on my heart since pretty much my entire college career that I wanted to end up in New York City. On my last visit back in January, those feelings only deepened, but for a bigger reason than I had planned. Even still "You're the God of this City". A city that needs more hope with the ever increasing population. Of all 5 Burroughs, 9 million people approximately are the populous, and almost 2.5 million in Manhattan alone. You can be in the most affluent of places and find the poorest of people turning to the wrong avenues to find hope in alcohol, panhandling, drugs... and it is just not right. My heart continues to yearn to make a difference in that place. It is my prayer that God, in HIS time, will bless that yearning with bringing me there.

I know what I want, and I aim high.... There is so much I want out of life, and life owes me not a damn thing. For lack of a better term. God owes me nothing, but gives me so much more than I deserve. I am blessed.

So, moving forward.... getting back in step, not letting life being life get in the way of what lies ahead. Praying and seeking things with a pure heart and being open that God may place something before my eyes that I may not have thought of or something I wouldn't want to do, but God wants me to do it. Whether that is work in another field I have not thought of, or to go back to school, or to take a baby step I had not thought of. All in all.... everything will come around and be as it should, as I place my faith in Him, to not grow lazy, and continue at a pace of forward and upward movement.