Divine Appointment? Kinda....

The past couple months I have really been dealing with this "rut" and heck had one of the weirdest dreams that Kristi interpreted as not feeling adequate, or unprepared. And maybe that is the case to some degree.

Let me go back....

3 years ago I sat in Rec 360 (Researching Recreation, Parks, and Tourism Administration). This class was in preparation for Senior Project (Rec 460/1). In this class it was taught by Dr. Jacobs. Truly a great and enthusiastic guy, but sometimes his answers to life's most important (at the time) questions. After going to a career fair at Poly, I remember feeling a little bit of defeat. Not many people knew what my degree was, which was shocking as here I was attending one of top 4 best schools on the West Coast, and they seemed taken aback about my degree. So I go into class with this question "When I go to career/job fairs here on campus and let recruiters know of my degree... they ask "What is that?". Now, how do I overcome this obstacle?" and I will never forget Dr. Jacobs' answer... "Yeah. You know who has a good answer to your question? Dr. Greenwood.... since we car pool both Dr. Greenwoods' told me a great answer. You should go ask them.". Can we say.... "worst answer ever" ?!?!

Now, fast forward to now, and still being faced by this question in interviews, not feeling like I have enough experience even though I got 1,000 hours like everyone else in my degree was required and had a paid (which is rare) internship of 400 hours, which truly was the internship for the dark pits of hell.  But I was in a bind. I had no options other than that if I needed the income since I was giving up 40 hours a week and still needed to keep my other current job at the time (which was Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf). Just because I didn't make the sacrifice doesn't mean I am not as committed. So here I am.... wandering "what do I do?". I have this big goal that I am doing everything I can do. I am praying, and trying to be open... heck I applied to a position in Palo Alto, CA I am not completely sold on, but it is is a step in a better direction. Following my trip to New York in January I became kind of demotivated. For lack of a better word. It was a great experience and a wonderful time seeing family, but I interviewed for a job I didn't get, and I am really okay with that. The pay was not great, and interviews are always practice for the next one. I continue (not as aggressively as I should) to look for jobs back East, and I feel this disadvantage to my current location. And not able to relocate until a job is securely in place. In this economy.... it's the only way.

So this morning, I am at work... in the job that yes keeps in SLO, and I can barely pay Student loans, and I am in a job that could have better pay, but yet I am blessed to be working at all-- in the auto industry nonetheless. SO.... Dr. Jacobs comes in as a customer. Can we say.... Divine Appointment? So I got the opportunity to talk to him for about 20 minutes and it kinda eased things. Keep pressing on and making the most out of situations and not doing anything that puts my well being (you know... having somewhere to live) in jeopardy.

So, I will press on. Not let the world beat me down. And pray!