Summer Comes to the End.... and on a quiet note.

After two months I am still job searching and I feel so discouraged. I know that it is not my fault that the unemployment rate in California is at a record high of 11.9% and climbing and the nation is at 9% and recent reports state it will only continue to climb. While I am petrified of continuing to make ends meet... .God has gotten me through today and I assume I will make it tomorrow.

My family was in town this weekend and with that comes mixed feelings. Love them in small doses, but I definitely have my limit of how much I can handle, and I definitely handle being around them better separately than as a whole. With my parents situation, that is always needing prayer.. it scares me a bit. I see things in me that remind me of my mom.... and things that I believe hinder her from wanting to be happy or making things work... like marriage, and it scares me to wonder if I will be the same way... and knowing that am okay with not being married as I deal with those things like being a reactor. They definitely need prayer as my mom continues saying they will be divorcing and all this other stuff. I saw a lot this weekend, and it really just was disheartening.

I do have some ideas with working in a position under AmeriCorps, so I am really praying God does something with that... as there is a position in Santa Maria that I feel would be a good fit for me. It would be doing some program coordinating for a non-profit, and there is a stipend and 4,700 at the end of the term paid back to my principle on my student loans, and health insurance, and only 15-20 from my house. So prayerfully God works through that, or works through something soon.

Nothing else really going on. I have been enjoying more "me" time lately than usual, so not too sure why. As I stare 25 down in a little under a month and a half, I have been reflecting on a lot and just thinking how I never thought I would be where I am at 25. But here I am... now what to do with it.

Prayer Requests: My parents for restoration and healing and forgiveness. My job and financial situation and for God's peace and having the faith He will continue to provide. Also, I feel like my ear infections are coming back, so prayer for that to not be the case.