Wanting purpose in the uncertainty

Sometimes I never have the reason for why life works out as it does. I see a change in relationships go from hot to cold and then others from cold to hot. I see things happening in seasons, I see cycles in things. I have a "friend" with whom I have supposedly reconciled with.... but we don't speak.... kinda weird. I have how many people on my facebook and I talk to and invest in alot less than 1/3 of those relationships. Some I just went to high school with, some were in a Crusade thing with me in college, past roommates, current people in my life... and I wonder what's the point? The point is you never know when that string that exists will pull. And God may set up the perfect reason... well with God in control of life... he will know the reasons... even if I don't.

I was reminded of how wonderful it is to live on the Central Coast. The small town feel minus the weird creepy feel, and surrounded by others who love where they live. We have our mountains, our oceans, a set of unity as a community. Arroyo Grande is even so much more conservative than SLO, and I say this with the recent statistics based on the last Presidential Election of 54% of SLO county voting Republican.

As I worry about jobs, and how there are so many scams out there of job postings, and people offering little to none for pay.... it is scary the economy we are in. And the goals I have to pay bills off and get ahead. My biggest goal is to not have any debt and this economy is not helping any. I have student loans waiting to be paid off, I have credit cards... God knows it all... and I know it will all be taken care of? How? I don't have the answers... but He does.

Life is full of so much uncertainty, but God is anything but uncertain. He has purpose, he created me with purpose. And it has nothing to do with how much money I make, or what color my hair is... it is so much more. I thought I knew what it was a long time ago, and I don't think that is what it is anymore. I don't even think I know anymore. I don't see God through the same eyes than when I saw him 5 years ago or even a year ago. And so maybe my purpose has changed? Or I have changed and coinside has my purpose as well.....?